I shared this story on Dennis’ blog two summers ago.
I’ve been doing lots of reflecting on 2008.
Love, Laughter, Loss…it’s all there.
But, what stands out to me the most is, this has been a year of perseverance. God has stretched me in so many areas, both privately & publicly. There have definitely been times when I’ve questioned “Why?” And while I don’t have answers to all my questions, I do know that I’ve had to unconditionally put my faith in Him and trust Him through all the waters we go through.
Because I know I’m never alone.
It feels like it sometimes.
But, I know He’s there, swimming right along side me.
I’m a terrible swimmer. Seriously, if you ever want a little boost, race me…you’ll win. My parents signed me up for a swim team when I was 10. I went to the first practice just to try it out & that very night the team had their first meet. They were down a swimmer so guess who got to fill in? Yep, me. So, the race I competed in was the front crawl, in other words, your basic swimming stroke. All I had to do was swim down the length of the pool & back. Should be easy, right? The race began & I did okay at first. I kept up with the other girls about the first fourth of the race. After that though, everything fell apart. By the time I finished my first lap, everyone else had already finished the race. Picture now if you will, me, still trying to swim back & the next set of swimmers on their stands ready to begin the next race. I mean, everyone was in their ready position & waiting for the whistle. Nobody realized I was still in the water! Finally, through what had to be divine intervention, someone realized I was still swimming & they stopped and waited…and waited…I could have easily stopped & gotten out of the water, so the next race could start, but I didn’t. There was no way I wasn’t going to complete this race. I thought, “You put me in this water & I’m going to finish!” By the time I did (yes I did!), my arms were so tired I couldn’t even pull myself up. My coach had to literally lift me out of the water. And then he did something that surprised me. He started cheering! I thought he’d be embarrassed, but he was just proud that I didn’t give up.
So, why do I tell this? Well, I thought you might enjoy a cute story. Just kidding! I tell you this because even though I’m a terrible swimmer, I’m awesome at treading water. I can stay in one place for quite a bit of time. But, the point is, I don’t go anywhere. I just stay in one place. I find myself doing this spiritually from time to time. I’m not going anywhere, just staying afloat. But, that’s not the way I want to end my race. I want to come in, just like I did in the story I shared, with the Lord lifting me up at the end. I want to come in tired & exhausted, knowing I used everything He gave me. It’s hard & at times I struggle, but I remind myself that He put me in this water for a reason…
So, to this day, I still have the 6th Place ribbon I received from that race and I smile every time I see it. I may not have come in first, but I finished. My prayer is to one day hear the Lord say, “Well done Kelly.”